you can dance

you’ve got the moves

sweet tooth

i just ate a whole pack of mamba – and, o my god, it’s still that good – sweet, yummy, gooey perfection – i want more!

world wide web of wonder

the internet is a wondrous thing – while working all afternoon yesterday, i found some photographs of a lovely valley in austria – that happened to be the exact same valley, where my grand-parents liked to vacation once upon a time – thus i found myself compelled to look it up on the internet and after some random clicking and flicking, i found an article on a rock located above the wangalm, which is full of memorial plates for people who died upon the mountains – one of them is for my grandfather – it gave me the shivers that this very same plate was quoted, it’s “all ways lead to god, one leads over the mountains” being a sort of leitmotif for the whole article

this group of random travelers happened to record their feelings on the internet, but it is a very nice thought that many come upon that rock every year and all of them read of my grandfather and thus remember him, just as we do – we all leave or trails on this earth and sometimes they make wondrous things happen – my grandfather died many years ago and it still hurts, but it also makes me happy to realize he might have died that day on that mountain, but will never be forgotton as long as this plate is there – and even more wonderous – we chose the quote because that was what he had photographed years before on an other mountain on an other plate – life is so inspiring and even in death we refuse to give up and keep on being there and pointing the way for generations to follow – a truly comforting thought

funshine

you want a picture of me? – here you go – that’s me – charming, ain’t i? – and always happy – a little sunshine in everybodys life – life’s a dream and full of sunshine and i, i am funshine bear and make it all come true and happy for you

the doctor goes cartoon?

first picture of the new doctor who animated series, which is to air later this year – it looks like him, it will talk like him, but it is so not real – i will have to wait and see, if i’ll like it, but the image sure doesn’t do the trick – part of the charm of doctor who is, that one can very well imagine it all to be real because he is so real and he fills the part with such life and energy and himself (not strictly speaking of david tennant only here) – if it’s a cartoon, it could be anything – seriously, no one ever thinks sailormoon and spiderman are for reals when watching their stiff animated bodies move on screen, do they? – so, i think i prefer real people to drawn stiffs and a real doctor to one on paper any day

never let me go

here’s another book gone movie for which i cannot wait to come to screen – never let me go – i used to be able to read whole nights through, when i was younger – nowadays sleep usually gets in the way due to exhaustion from the days, but this novel kept me awake till the early hours, i had it through in one big rush and i loved every minute of it – it’s idyllic charm and it’s underlying mystery forming a perfect mixture – i never wanted to let go and willed the story to go on and on and on – and now, just like one of my other all time favourites (ian mcewan’s atonement) it’ll be turned into a movie, starring keira knightly – i am excited because i know that’ll be a good one – somehow she’s started to become britain’s number one novel-to-screen-enchantress – starting with jane austen classics and moving on to all my favourite reads – i call that something and i could almost be jealous (after all, she also got to work with johnny!)

broken china

a common saying in germany is that broken china brings luck – taking things literally i broke my grandma’s irreplaceable meissen forget-me-not plate last night and followed it up with an ever so slightly less valuable pink cup today – but so far no luck whatsoever – only my beloved almost hitting me and breaking my nose with a cricket bat, a hole in my favourite skirt and a funny ache in my throat – so, i’ll put behind all my superstitions*, try not to break anymore valuable china and live happily ever after

jjj

* this includes late-night candle-light tarot sessions, where i’ll already know the outcome (i say barbaro, you say hot plate, thank you very much) anyways

eden

i agree, every girl needs a gay best friend, but i think i’d have left then and there – who cares if this is paradise

chopin was my first love

sadly, i never looked this cool, when playing the piano – but i miss it – why does a piano have to be so great and big and my place be so small?

me dance pretty one day

so, tonight i will have my first ballet class – i am not too sure about that and expect i’ll behave like a klutz, but i thought i’d at least give it a try – you should always live up to your dreams and ballet has been on the list ever since i was a little girl – i am very excited and maybe this is the beginning of a wonderful, charmed life in the fine arts of fragile dancing – who knows, it might be – things happen – and two years ago i never thought i’d do more than awkward dance moves in a club and that turned out to be totally not true and by now i am part of my very own dance group and do just fine – so ballet really is just one next step

ps: august 21st 2009 – ballet is very nice, gives me sore muscles and a sense of being fragile, pretty and ever so slightly over the top cool, but this class is not so nice, gives me strange pain in strange places and a sense of being clownish, fat and being taught childish dance moves at an age that’s way over the top – so i’ll not quite give up the dream of becoming a prima-ballerina one day, but i am definitely not going to attend this make-belief adults-back-to-childhood, we dance ring-a-ring-a-roses type of class anymore – give my a good choreographer and teacher and i’ll dance anything anyday, but this? – no thank you very much, i’ll stay my way and feel pretty

three cheers for the swedes

melli – this is mostly just for you – don’t thank me, thank my extensive procrastinating skills

you’ve got a friend in me

hey, i do have a friend – erich-maria, my lovely – doesn’ talk back, but always so happy to listen – gosh, plants are such lovely companions

little miss lonely

that’s that

i am stupid and wet and cold and miserable with a capital M – life can really suck and how i ever believed things could change is now completely lost on me – some things never change and my life back from the big city is not how i imagined it would be – it seems like i was never gone in some ways and still it is impossible to pick up right where i left off – having been missed and being welcomed back is rather nice and i do enjoy old habits – but i truly wish i could have left some habits deeply buried in the abysses of the past, instead of taking them out the first chance i get and afterwards feeling worse than i have in months

and now i am lonely, oh so lonely and a bottle of blackberry wine my only companion for tonight – really, feeling more and more like an old spinster each day – that is ridiculous – just as ridiculous as me thinking i could change things and forget so easily – at least the wine is yummy and goes well with chocolate ice-cream and there’s always time to regret later – tonight i am getting drunk, sadly alone and rather lonesome, but at least i’ve got good music and i guess a couple of more glasses and i’ll be dancing around wildly and stupidly – is that sad? – i believe so, but right now i don’t give a fuckin’ damn about it – i am miserable and this makes it feel a little more bearable

berlin

erich-maria

last night was the big night of good-bye – i am sad and i will miss my office – even if i was only interning for three months, it felt like a long time and it was such a good time – i am used to good-byes, but this one was special and nice and almost a little tearful and amongst my good-bye presents was one very special – i was selected to adopt the orchid erich-maria – it is very nice indeed that he’ll keep me company when i say good-bye to the city and return home – even though the city has become home and will always be home as well

foot of the mountain

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they were right – berlin’s got mountains – yesterday i climbed the great bunkerberg in friedrichshain and today it was the original kreuzberg – well, more hills than mountains, but who’d have thought? – this truly is summer in the city and all for no money and on a weekday like this even without so many sun-crazy working berliners like it would be on a weekend – really, this city has too many nice places for me, i could chill someplace different every day, but the waterfalls at kreuzberg, alongside the landwehrkanal are my favourites – you can guess why – of course, water and my feet in cool, fresh water – ahhhh, sigh, almost as good as walking barefoot on fresh green gras – almost!

the nanny

how many after-school afternoons were spent watching the nanny? – oh, many, many – almost every single one – i absolutely loved this show and since i am on holiday this week, but still wake up early, i spent my early morning hours sipping coffee and watching back-to-back episodes of the nanny on tv – delicious

he’s a better …

very nice – me likey!